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It’s okay to rest
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We are not alone
I added to my affirmations list today. I didn’t plan it. It just happened organically. It felt right. Last night I was plagued with anxiety during the night. On the psychiatrist scales, my anxiety comes out as ‘mild’. Since my Depression Era, the peaks of anxiety have been unexpected and crushing. It’s a bizarre experience.… Read more
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The little frog that could
My favourite moment of today was when my parents and I reached the summit of a gruelling hike and my parents are so proud they made it to the top. To top it off, Dad turns to me to proudly exclaim ‘and the little frog made it all this way too’. I had forgotten I… Read more
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Moose aren’t real
Anyone that knows me, knows that I do not believe Moose are real. This is based purely on the fact I have never seen one in real life. I am a Must See It To Believe type gal. This ridiculous notion has been going on for years. Friends think I am joking until they see… Read more
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Go slow
I purged tonight. It was unexpected and it makes sense at the same time. After a full day of adventuring, I was having a quiet moment to myself in the forest near where we are staying, like I usually do twice a day. I checked in with Little Kate, for the first time in a… Read more
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One day you may be called upon to save my life
To the parts of me who are currently keeping in an age old holding pattern, I know somewhat of your existence. I don’t know the exact configuration. I know you are very good at your job. I know you exist for a reason. It is exhausting for me to try and resist or overcome you.… Read more
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If you do not find time for your wellness
As the saying goes ‘if you do not find time for your wellness, you will be forced to find time for your illness’. I can feel myself coming into the Illness Station. I feel physically ill from my exhaustion. I have a follow up doctor’s visit in a week. I should get my test results… Read more
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The best way to work out why a trap has been set:
Sometimes, the best way to work out why a trap has been set, is to walk right into one. I am sleepless in Seattle still. I am getting to the point where I am going to crash and burn so hard. I feel the sores in my mouth forming from what feels like malnutrition, or… Read more
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Preparation for the next level
Cora sitting on me while I am trying to write this. A long day of ticking boxes. Reparenting myself at its finest. I nearly had a panic attack today. The low level hum of ‘something is wrong. I am wrong’ consistent in my day. The panic attack potential was real and scary. Somehow I strapped… Read more