“I hide a lot of things from myself. I hide a lot of stuff from myself. Leave it alone unless it’s exploding. Unless it’s exploding it doesn’t get my attention.” – George Carlin, from the documentary about his life ‘George Carlin’s American Dream’.

I do not want to write tonight. Well, I want to write, I just don’t have it in me. I am still showing up to check in with myself, to honour my commitment to myself.

A lot happened today and it ended with a realisation in the shower that essentially I am due for a growth spurt. I am about to embark on integrating my teenage self. There is a lot of resistance, a lot of heartache, confusion (the cat nearly fell off the couch cleaning herself – hilarious timing), and most of all rage. The rage feels too much. It feels scary. It feels uncertain.

I had such a good full day today. I did so well. This opportunity to integrate my teenage self is a blessing. I will honour it and treasure it deeply. So that means not being at my computer tonight.

See you tomorrow for a proper download.

Lots of love,

Kate