To the parts of me who are currently keeping in an age old holding pattern,

I know somewhat of your existence. I don’t know the exact configuration. I know you are very good at your job. I know you exist for a reason. It is exhausting for me to try and resist or overcome you. I think I need to make friends with you. I want to understand you. I want to know you truly and fully. I want to set you free. I know you don’t want to release your hold on me. If I can’t see what is below the surface, I cannot know why you don’t want to release me. I want to know why. Really I do. I think I can handle it. I know I probably can’t handle it. I would like to try though.

If you would like to show me something in my dreams tonight. I am listening, willing, and waiting patiently to understand you.

Once you are released from this role, you are not lost or forgotten or gone. No. There is more for you. Your skills are transferrable. Your strength, your wisdom, your knowing, your agility and speed, all of these are waiting for a new role. Something to accelerate us forward. There is no you or I in the future. In the future, it is simply ‘us’. An amalgamation of all the Selves within, released from our past. One day you may be called upon to save my life, and you will have day to day skills to help me move through in life.

I don’t know how all of this unfolds, or works, or if it’s even true or possible. I’ve always been delusional like that and I forge my own path come hell or high water. I am determined to find out.

In the meantime, let’s keep up the good team work.

Thank you in advance for your consideration. I look forward to hearing from you.

Lots of love,

Kate