My favourite moment of today was when my parents and I reached the summit of a gruelling hike and my parents are so proud they made it to the top. To top it off, Dad turns to me to proudly exclaim ‘and the little frog made it all this way too’. I had forgotten I had made him pack it in his bag this morning. The fact he remembered, for one, since I had forgotten and it was my idea, and two, he made the point to tell me he remembered. Then he wanted a photo with it and the summit sign. 

My heartstrings <3

I’ll also add: Today’s hiking adventure was a metaphor for life.

It can be tough and gruelling. We must recognise our limits, stop and take stock of what’s going on inside of us as well as check in with our fellow comrades. We may see the path ahead and talk ourselves out of forging onwards. Our bodies can do anything, it is our minds we must convince. Others may go speeding on ahead, with absence of doubt. Some sure of their abilities, others with a lack of confidence but sure will and determination to find a way anyway.

They get to the top, admire the view and the wonders of life. Thoughts trace back to those left behind. Wishing, wondering, assessing if they could really do it too, to be up here. A cost-benefit analysis is undertaken. Alone, maybe it can’t be done. Together we have strength in numbers. Our weaknesses and strengths combining to balance the scales.

Those who ventured far proceed back down the way they came to find their fellow comrades. Meeting them with grace, enthusiasm, encouragement, reassurance and big smiles. Asking what they want from this experience. ‘You can do this too’. On we forge, together. Slow, steady, checking back and checking in always.

Venture far and be rewarded, in many ways, and many levels.

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This whole experience is helping my attachment style to move towards secure attachment with myself, and with others.

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I deserved this kind of day. I am so grateful I didn’t kill myself. I am so grateful for my life. I will not waste it.

Lots of love,

Kate